Have you ever made a daring descision that you regret it after that?

This is the story.

At first, I got into Temasek, with 10 pts and 4 bonus pts.
I was in fact, pretty happy at tt point of time.

On the same day of the release, Jun Hao even rang me 2 times (both unsuccessful attempts) on my hp.
When I finally returned his call, he expressed his concern, asking which JC I got into.
He was really happy when he learnt tt one more of his clsmate will be joining him.

When I got home frm work, I told my parents the results.
They asked me whether I want to appeal.
"OK 咯。去 try 一 try，玩一玩咯。"
Immediately, they went down to the shops to photocopy the required documents aft realising the next day was the last day of submission.

The nxt day, when submitting the appeal form, I found out there were 30+ ppl already on the list before me.
Well..
I knew my chances of slim.
COP is partial 5 and I got 6.
随缘 lor.

At night, when talking and eating with the 4L ppl, Jun Liang's phone rang.
He was accepted into TJ.
Then Leonard's phone rang.
Also accepted into TJ.
Just as I was grinning as more ppl are transferring into 'my' college, my phone rang.
You should know what happened.
I was just like the 红星大奖.
The ppl didnt know they are going to get the prize and when their name is called, their surname become 'Teo' (because Stun Tio).

Yes, I should be happy tt I got into the skl tt I had put as my first choice.
But imagine tt more and more of your friends are transferring into your skl, and at the end, you have to go to another skl.
You wouldnt want to imagine tt happening.

I tried telling myself tt choosing a college, is based on my independent will, not based on other ppl's choice.
But it's really kind of impossible at this stage.

There hasnt been really a formal 'goodbye' to everyone in 4L, although there's the chalet, treetopwalk, and probably, the christmas gathering.
It will be far too sudden not to see the familiar faces tt you have been with for the past 2 years.

At least seeing most of them again will make me feel better.

To some, this PAE is actually crap, as it only post you into a college for a few wks*.
But to me, it will be a real comfort to see familiar faces; talking and laughing tgt with them again.

I will definitely miss Perry; his face, his smiles, his body language and his height.
Not forgetting Guo Dong, Jun Hao, Jasper, Leonard, Jun Liang and Tsze Deng.
I know this sounds crazy, but I will also miss Adeline, Jie Si, Meng Jit, Mei Ling, Aurial and Hwee Li's company.

While on the V side, there's only a handful of ppl tt I feel comfortable with; like Victor, Randy, Yue Long, Noel, Sabrina, Viviana.

So while feeling lucky abt the successful appeal, I'm at the same time, feeling disappointed tt I am not going to see most ppl for the nxt few wks*.
Sure, you can there's still the JAE, but what are the chances..?

Remember the drama, 'Holland V'?
At first, Chen Liping (CLP) liked Zheng Geping (ZGP) alot.
When they are officially in a relationship and going to be married, she's still confused whether to choose Xie Shaoguang (XSG) or ZGP.
In the last episode, she has to resort to coin throwing to decide her fate.
[FYI: She chose XSG]

I'm like CLP, going to be 'married' to ZGP (TJ).
Then, suddenly, before marriage, I thought abt my old flame, XSG (VJ) and decided to throw coins (appeal) to decide my fate.
[See http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aE-xLlPlx8M&feature=related]

The only difference is tt I'm not sure whether this is the right choice.

Over these few days, I have straightened out my mind.
As CLP had said:
“笑也一天，哭也一天，为什么不笑着过一天？”

Since I have appealed for the college and have successfully got into it, why not just be contented and make full use of the orientation and indulge myself in their so-called college spirit, and to see for myself whether this is a gd college for the rest of my 2-yr studies?
Afterall, I might not be able to walk into this college anymore aft the JAE.